Could things get any worse than they are right now? It’s Wednesday, we had decided to go to Blue Mountain in Collingwood for the weekend to blow of some steam.
Originally it was supposed to be Boyce, Brenter, Phil and me, but someone had to open their mouth and mention it in front of Joff, so obviously he’s joining us now. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind the guy at all. He seems like a good guy from what I know of him with the exception of his roaming eye. My problem with him is not him. My problem is with me and the fact that I can’t stop thinking about his girlfriend.
I wanted to shoot myself in the face when he entered the locker room from the shower asking if he could bring her along. Then slyly adds he can ask her friend to join us if I want a piece. I didn’t even get a chance to answer before Boyce jumps in. “Yeah buddy invite them it’ll be good” Just what I needed right now, I haven’t been able to get her out of my mind since we had lunch. Now I have to watch him with her for 3 days. Talk about a relaxing weekend.
I can’t even stomach to look at him right now. Last Sunday night we left on a road trip. We landed in Philly and couple of us went out to grab a beer. Of course with this being Joff’s old stomping ground he knew exactly where to go. It didn’t take long before there were girls everywhere and Joff was smack dab right in the middle soaking up the attention.
We were having a pretty good time when I happened to see some bleach blonde punk slut making the moves on Joffrey. He seemed totally interested which didn’t surprise me, we all know how reputation follows you.
I was chatting up some red head trying to clear my mind of its new favorite obsession. She was nice enough. Her name was Emma and she was an accountant. We talked and I tried to flirt but I just didn’t have it in me. After finding out that she was a Capricorn, loved cats and taught swimming lessons I mentally checked out. I couldn’t help it any longer I watched Joffrey talking up some girls hoping that he would screw up and make a move on anyone of them but he didn’t while I was there.
We stayed for another drink but I sent Red on her way. I ended up drowning my sorrows in my beer while thinking of Michelle, at home alone in bed waiting for Joffrey to call, wishing it was me she was thinking of.
Get your shit together I kept telling myself.
I let the Boyce know I was leaving early but when I got back to the hotel I couldn’t sleep. This was seriously screwing with my head. I kept going over the conversation with her from lunch, the way I made her laugh, seeing her smile. The way her hand felt on my arm. I know she felt something too, the way her body reacted and she became so shy. I almost hugged Joff when he asked her if she was cold. God I needed to get laid. I cannot keep thinking about her like this.
The next morning I awoke early and decided to go for a run to clear my head. It was cold but refreshing to stretch my muscles and feel my feet pounding against the pavement. 45mins later I had worked up a good sweat and was on my way through the doors to hotel when I ran into Joff, talking on the phone. “Okay baby, I gotta go. I miss you. K, K bye sweetie.” He disconnects with a smile on his face like he’s the happiest man alive. “Dude I’m beat. I think I got like an hour of sleep. Tough night last night if you know what I mean. Do you think Coach will be pissed if I miss practice?”
Fuck I’m not in the mood for this right now. “He’ll lose his shit if you don’t go to practice”
“Whatever man, right now I need to sleep.”
He didn’t bother to show up for practice that day and although he was there, dressed and on the ice, he didn’t show up for the game either and we got a beating. Talk about reliable.
I was pretty shocked when Joffrey invited me to go to Blue Mountain with him and a couple of the guys for the weekend. Apparently, I had made a good impression and when the guys decided to have a weekend getaway, someone suggested I join them so they could get to know me better.
I was feeling better after my little freak out at Real Sports. I’m chalking it up to the fact that I was just feeling overly self-conscious and maybe a little bit jealous at the female attention Joff was getting.
I’m not naïve to think that it doesn’t happen to him but it’s another to have it go down in front of me. Some girls have no shame.
Friday arrived pretty quickly and I couldn’t wait for my work day to end. Thankfully I took a half day and was out f there at noon. Last night Jenn helped me pack my small weekend suitcase casually dropping hints how I should pack some sexy lingerie just in case I needed it. I assured her there was no need. There was no way I’d be having sex with Joff while his friends were in the vicinity.
After work I drove home like a bullet, had a quick shower being careful not to wet my hair. When I got out I was surprised to hear Joff was already there talking to Jenn. He was talking up Tyler to her saying how he was single and thought she was cute. I instantly felt the pang of jealousy as the words about Tyler left his mouth. Not only that but I was so embarrassed considering that last night I told Jenn about the “lunch incident” and how I couldn’t stop thinking about Tyler since the last time I saw him.
“Jenn, why don’t you join us this weekend? There’s plenty of room and Michele would love to not be the only girl there I’m sure”
“Love to but I’ve made plans for the weekend.”
“Come on Jenn, you could just make a phone call and bail. Go ask Michele, I’m sure she’d love it if you came.” Seconds later I hear her run down the hall and run through the bathroom door and slamming it shut behind her. “So what do you think?” she asks looking at me expectantly.
“About what?” I pretend.
“Don’t give me your bullshit, I know you heard everything. I think we both know that these walls aren’t sound proof.” She crosses her arms and cocks her brow daring me to deny it.
With my gym bag packed I knocked on Luca’s door to get his ass moving. He decided to join us last minute which was great since he’s such a good time plus we could carpool given that we’re roomies. He insisted we take his car since he thought it was chick magnet. I’m surprised when Luca opens his door and comes out bags packed and ready to go “Everyone’s meeting at Starbucks so we can leave together. We gotta go we’re already late.” He grabs his keys off the island and we make our way down to the car.
On the ride over I’m nervous, a solid mix of both good and bad. Good because I can’t to see her, bad because I can’t control how I feel about her. My hands starting sweating at just the thought of being near her and have to keep wiping them on my jeans to try and calm my nerves.
We pull into the parking spot next to Darryl’s car and I scan our little crowd. She isn’t among them and neither is Jenn. Instantly I feel disappointed at not seeing her but then think maybe by some stroke of luck she decided to not come to save me from my private torture.
Of course she couldn’t make it easy on me. When I spotted her coming out the coffee shop, drink in hand smiling at laughing with Jenn, I couldn’t peel my eyes off of her. She was like a ray of sunshine bursting through the clouds on a gloomy day. She’s wearing those boots with the fur on the top that all the hot girls wear and a pair of yoga pants that cling to well toned thighs, and now that I see them in action I’m imagining them wrapped around my waist. Holy shit. Her coat is the exact same one I have only white and she has the fur trimmed hood covering her head from the cold winter wind.
“Is that her?” Luca asks me and for a minute I wonder if he’s read my mind and knows I want her. “Who?” I ask quizzically.
“Yup, she’s the taller one. The other is her friend Jenn.” When I exhale it comes out like a sigh.
“Joff was telling me that you wanted a piece of her.”
Surprised by the question I stumble and stupidly ask “What…Who?”
“Jenn you dork! What is up with you today?” He looks at me like I’ve grown three heads.
“No…..Nothing just tired, couldn’t sleep” Which was true since I was dreading this trip with a passion and tossed and turned all night.
“Are you gonna make your move this weekend?” He asks nodding his head in their direction while he turns the car off. I wish. “Naw man, I’m not really into her.” Luca looks at me with a completely blank look on his face like I’ve surprised all the thoughts out of his head. “Seriously? Can I have her???” His excitement makes him look like a child asking for a puppy. I laugh and shrug. “She’s fair game but I think Darryl has his eye on her too.”
“He can try” He laughs and does a little fist pump, I can’t help but chuckle at his optimism.
We get out of the car to greet everyone as she makes her way over. The girls stroll up to the group just as she’s tucking a piece of hair behind her ear that escaped her pony tail when her hood slipped off. God she’s adorable. She looks up at me for the first time, a beautiful smile lights up her features and she waves a small wave. The gesture makes me instantly warm and nervous. I feel my cheeks get hot and wish I could control how shy she makes me feel. The only thing I can manage to do is mouth “Hi” back to her.
Joffrey introduces Jenn officially to everyone and makes a real spectacle when it’s my turn, saying what a great guy I am, clapping me on the back and carrying on. “I’m sure he is” She says as she winks at me then looks from me to Michelle and back at Joff. The gesture makes me freeze in place but I realize the look was only for Michele and I to see. My stomach drops with a flash of humiliation. Fuck I hope Joff hasn’t told them I like Jenn, how embarrassing and awkward would that be.
As soon as we get in the car Joff leans over and grabs my hand. “Hey, are you ok sweetie?” he asks me as his hand soothingly strokes the back of mine.
“Ya, I just haven’t been feeling myself lately” Because I’ve been too busy fantasizing about your teammate.
“You getting sick?” the concern in his voice makes me feel guilty.
“I hope not but I promise not to let it ruin our great weekend.” I say with a smile and rub his thigh in a soothing gesture.“Good. No more weirdo Michelle. Okay?” He asks as he brushes a piece of hair out of my face “Okay I promise” leaning over to give him a quick peck. It felt good to actually like it. Lately I feel like my mind has been playing tricks on me and I’m starting to doubt whether or not I really like Joff. Maybe it’s because the end of the season is coming and I don’t know what that holds for us. Technically we haven’t made any big declarations of exclusivity and we haven’t labeled anything, so maybe I’m anxious about that, I don’t know. I can see that he’s great guy and that maybe this crush of mine is getting a little carried away.
The ride up was fun. We listened to music and sang along. It was good to relieve some of the tension that had built up in my body from my brief encounter with Tyler. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the weekend with us being in such close quarters if just the act of him smiling at me gets me worked up. Even when Joff gave me a hug before we got in the car I felt a little awkward hugging him back in front of Tyler. I know he senses something’s up since we haven’t slept together since the lunch, which is not our normal. I can’t explain it but I just have this feeling that something isn’t right between Joff and I and I won’t let myself get hurt. I keep thinking that I’m imagining things and that it’s only because I’ve developed this kind of “crush” on Tyler, but I have this nagging feeling that there more to it than that.